Love

Sitting here watching Crap on TV my mind wanders, just drifting off and all i can think about is her. All i can think about is- i wish she was here, is she okay, is she happy, is she thinking about me, WOW there is no one quiet like her. i suddenly realise that i've never fealt anything quiet like this and that if this is not love, then love doesn't exist there is nothing in this world more than this, no one in this world feels stonger than this.

What hurts is that there is no one in this world that feels this way for, there is no one in this world that sits there doing nothing and suddenly thinks "I wonder what Spyke is up to" or "I'll just give Spyke a quick ring just to hear his voice" and i have to ask myself why is this.

Now don't get the wrong idea i'm by no means alone, i have Friends some best friends, some mearly aquintenses, i have people who want me there and people who say they care for me, so i am not alone, never alone.

But why is it in a room full of people, i feel alone? Because no-one feels this way for me, more specifically she doesn't feel this way for me.

Now i'd love to say thats okay id love to say i can live with that but i can't, it pains me to know she doesn't feel that way, it pains me to know that i will never be that one for her. It pains me to know that i will wait a life time for her because i cannot settle for Second Best and every one comes second best to her. It pains me.

I love her and always will. I will always be alone, but its better than settling for someone who you do not or cannot love.

Good night all. XX

YOU know who you are

I just wanna say you know who you are and i love you. X i love, always have and always will. X

Do you find me attractive

Hi All

Do you find me attractive, Please vote honestly

Thanks

Spyke

XX

Life, Love and Sex

I spent most of my adult life looking for Love and Sex, now I'm not saying the two are mutually exclusive but i once thought it was. I spent the last 4 years thinking sex was love and love was sex, i spent time looking, searching for what it was i thought i wanted. I also thought i found it once or twice, but all i saw was heartache and loneliness, i do believe you can have love without sex, and i do believe you can have sex without love, but i don't believe for one moment you can have Life without the both of these thing.

I have lived as very unfulfilled life, i have not travelled a thousand miles, i have not swam with Dolphins, i have not ran with the Pack, i have led no remarkable life. But i was given a remarkable gift, i have met someone, someone special. She has the potential to go all the way, she is intelligent, she is pretty and she is funny. Now i hardly know the women and I'm not saying i love her, i am saying i like her and I'd like to get to know her more and see if anything happens.

We can but hope.

I have been rejected in the past, i have been humiliated and i have endured ridicule at the hands of those i thought loved me, but some how i soldier on, somehow i force myself to believe the impossible is possible.

and if you ever feel like there is no going forward, like you can take anymore then believe me when i say "Hope triumphs over experience"

X

Me

Hi Every body

Just a quick introduction to start with and soon enough you'll be getting a daily report of evety thing that is going on in my life and all the strange thoughts that have to be kept in my head so as not to scare civilized society.

I work full time in an office surrounded by people who don't understand me, but dont we all. there is a couple of people at work that knida get me, and a few who really don't. My sexuality is debated by all and unknown to me, i am past my experimental stage and still im unsure, but hey will i ever.

I'm currently single but am suffering from a sever case of unrequited love, am trying to get over this by focusing my attentions on some one else. Plus im not really allowed to like this person as i have a friend who has a thing for her and well you guys out there you know the rules. there is a guy at work thats flirting with me but he not really my type, i do flirt back i mean who wouldn't but im not really interested maybe summit might happen, maybe not just a bit of fun.

I still think my Ex girlfriend has feelings for me but that flame extinguised a while ago. Anyway thats enough ffom me. Undoubtable there is more to say and more that will be said but for now all ive got to say his Good Night and speak to you soon.

X